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Jun 3, 2020 20:24:58 GMT -5
Post by D1f Jade Morin - Alyssaimagine on Jun 3, 2020 20:24:58 GMT -5
JADE MORIN
Jade Morin really needed to punch something, or preferably someone. Back in District One this would have been an easy task. If she couldn't find any one else, there was always her brother older and oh did it feel good to punch him. It was the best form of stress relief, in her opinion and right now she needed some stress relief more than she'd ever needed it before. Ever since she Volunteered she'd wanted nothing more to punch something, but she couldn't, because then she'd be breaking the skin of her knuckles, and did that look pretty? Was that something the Capitolites who would be spending money to sponsor tributes wanted to see? Well, maybe when she was actually inside the arena, but during the interviews? No, they certainly did not! So, the only thing Jade could do was resist the temptation and tuck it away in the deep recesses of her mind, which was a whole lot easier said than done.Which was the likely reason behind the scowl. The plate of food would have looked delicious at any other time period, but right now she couldn't focus on food. Besides, she was used to good food, unlike the tributes from poor backgrounds and lower districts. Starvation wasn't an issue she'd ever faced, and she couldn't waste her time with being fascinated by Capitol food, even if it was still better than the food served back in District One. After all, no matter how rich one could be in even the higher Districts, nothing would ever compare to the Capitol. Otherwise, why would everyone envy the Capitol, even those back in the District she grew up? She was holding her fork, and poking at a piece of a meat.Wouldn't it be great to just swing a sword around? Her thoughts drifted back to the training room and she let out an audible sigh. Now, that had been a marvelous place. The weapons there were gleaming with jewels. Oh, there were some normal looking ones too, but she'd fallen in love with the bejeweled ones. She wasn't sure if they were as good as a normal sword, and she was sad to know that she wouldn't get the chance to try it out. She'd spent her entire life training with weapons and doing hand to hand combat: she didn't need to practice that here. As Gunner had told her a few weeks before Volunteering, she was focusing on things she hadn't learned back home. Which meant really boring, dull things that in no way released her stress levels. They may, however, save her life, so she did her best to pay attention.Still, no matter how useful learning about medical and poisonous herbs was, it certainly didn't help relieve any of her stress. She'd often glance over at the sword area wistfully staring at the others as they swung those beautiful swords around. She'd try not to think about the people using them, because she knew it was best to pretend the other people didn't exist. She couldn't form close attachments to people who needed to die, now could she? And they most certainly needed to die, because she needed to get back home to her younger siblings.It was much easier to focus on the aggression than the feelings she'd felt on the train ride. It was easier to pretend that she wasn't afraid or nervous at all. Jade didn't want to face the truth, so she chose to be angry, because that was a whole lot easier than realizing all she'd ever wanted was love and attention. She'd Volunteered for the Hunger Games - where she could die - all because she'd always wanted love. How could she come to terms with that?! That didn't match the image of herself she'd long since created in her head: Jade was a warrior and eager to see the blood of her victims. That was the type of girl she'd wanted to be. A warrior.That wasn't the truth, though, and somewhere deep down inside she knew it. She just wouldn't acknowledge it, because she needed to be a warrior if she was going to make it out of the Games alive. If she just died, what would happen to Gunner and Dagger?Jade forced her eyes shut and shoved those thoughts as far back in her brain as she could. No, she would not allow herself to think about things that made her so very weak. Still, the beginnings of tears pricked at her eyes, and she ignored it, willing herself not to let them loose. She would be strong, because Jade was strong. With a grunt, she stabbed a piece of the meat in front of her with as much force as she could allow. It gave her a small bit of satisfaction, though it wasn't nearly enough. No, she really, really needed to punch something. She needed to punch it over and over again and hear the bones crack beneath her fists, because that was satisfying. Oh, how she wished her older brother was here to punch him.She never figured she'd ever wish for him to be around, but she decided that he was the perfect punching bag. He'd hit her back, and right now that pain sounded marvelous. She could get lost in the moment, in the pain, in the sweat, in the adrenaline and for a while she could forget that very soon she could be heading off to her death.No, Jade scolded herself. There was no choice: she had to live. No matter what she faced out there, she absolutely had to come back home a Victor. A Winner. Glory to District One. Glory to the Morin family. That's what she needed to think about.Only then did she notice another person. Had they been there for long? If so, that wasn't a good sign. That meant they could have killed Jade if she were already in the arena. She really needed to get herself together. She looked up at the other person and did her very best to put her mask back on. Regal. Confident. High class. Powerful. She would not allow herself to break.
"What, you want to sit with me?" She asked, looking the girl over.
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