on the lips of neglect [Callum/Ezra]
Jun 5, 2020 18:23:25 GMT -5
Post by pogue on Jun 5, 2020 18:23:25 GMT -5
C A L L U M |
The walls are making fun of him again, and the armor made of satin sheets and silk pajamas can't protect him. The lights from outside flicker and dance across the walls of his room and the thump thump thump of Capitol music laughs at him as he trembles, vibrations running through his bones and laying to rest on his shattered heart.
Between the brutal training and the constant need to gain skills for his own survival, every part of his body was screaming at him that he needed sleep, to wrap himself within the ice-cold bed sheets and let his body drown. Yet even with a million soldiers inside his bones begging for rest his brain wouldn't let it happen, the thump thump thump of his heartbeat a chorus to his own suffering.
you can sleep when you're dead his brain says
and that time is fast approaching his heart whispers back
Like every other night he eventually pulls rips the sheets off of his body and lets them fall to the floor, whispering sweet nothings into the night as they slide from the bed. Normally, he found himself walking the hallways at night, the sanitized air of the training center squeezing every sin from his lungs and laughing at the ending of his own story. Though, after his bone-rattling encounter with Hellemine the night prior he found himself not wanting to explore what lies around each corner again.
So he climbs, the cold sting of the metal Capitol stairs pressing against the soles of his bare feet and shocking his system from whatever slumber it had slipped into. He had chosen to climb because after three nights he had actually wanted to feel the groans and protests of his own body, so used to it he was from Twelve. A weird thing to be missing, for sure, but he has discovered that dead men find themselves wanting weird things.
On the eighteenth flight his wish is granted, and when he finally opens the door to the roof of the training center his lungs come alive, cooled summer air wrapping itself around him. The lights of the city give him a show, blinking and blurring and painting the rooftops an explosive mixture of blues, pinks, and purples. He sighs softly before sitting down on the ground, resting his body backwards on his arms.
He'd called the Capitol a kingdom not long ago, but he's not sure if it's a kingdom or a graveyard.
but, does it matter? his brain asks him
they are one and the same his heart agrees