✩ public training sessions ✩
Jun 10, 2020 12:29:38 GMT -5
Post by gamemaker tallis 🧚🏽♂️kaitlin. on Jun 10, 2020 12:29:38 GMT -5
terra
markov
I didn't talk to Teddy about my private training session.
I think that's probably a mistake, but if I'm being honest with myself, I hadn't really thought about it much myself until a few hours ago. I knew what I wanted to do, generally, but I didn't block it out in my head exactly, didn't want to lock myself into a plan just in case the trainers didn't do exactly what I'd requested of them.
Humans are fickle creatures, and I refuse to put my trust in them for this.
Not after Kingpin, not after the ways in which he's been promising me for years that I'm valuable. That I'm irreplaceable. "Someone will volunteer," he'd assured me time and time again, promised that he had a whole list of contingency plans for if my name was ever pulled from the bowl. When my name was followed by crystal clear silence, sharp enough to cut, it was my entire world coming down around me, a cage that I hadn't even known I was locked inside of opening up for the first time.
It's cruel to tame a thing that doesn't know its strength.
I'm glad I finally know mine.
Sitting here in my uniform, the smooth cloth shifting along my skin, I can't help it when every single one of my thoughts goes to my fellow soldiers, the bloodhounds and scientists alike, the drug runners and the captains, every one a single cog in the bigger operation run by Kingpin. I catch sight of Perdita just as she's about to go through the door, and something in the shift of her hair makes me think about Sam, a small pang in my chest forming around her name. Thinking about Sam and everything that she loves, everything she's always going on and on about, DNA splicing and designer DNA and how people create mutts out of a base code or something or other and turn an animal into a weapon and I'm thinking about my knives and I'm thinking about my Gamemakers I—well, I have an idea.
Probably not a good one, but an idea all the same.
Verena Halitrephes has never been someone that I particularly paid attention to, but in Six she's something of a force to be reckoned with, a scientific mind for the ages, someone with the kind of genius people in Six would kill to be able to study under. I hadn't been planning to say much, had planned to find my knives and my hiding places and point out every small little vulnerable place on the human body that I had ever had the pleasure of learning.
And that would be it.
I wasn't here for a show, wasn't here for anything glamorous; I want to show them more than what I am, want to show them what I'm capable of.
Those are the things that matter.
But maybe, just maybe, I could bring a little piece of home into the room with me.
And maybe, if I'm lucky, Verena and Nilima will like it.
"District Six Female, Terra Markov," the announcer calls when they step back into the room. I look sideways at JJ and Helle, throw them a little smirk and mouth good luck.
When I walk into the room, I nod to my Gamemakers to show respect, knowing that I'll have to fight to hold their attention. I'm the girl in the middle, I know that, and so I know that I'll be the tribute most likely to be forgotten, the one that didn't start the show off with a bang and the one that didn't end with a whimper.
"The first time I killed someone, I was twelve," I start, my voice steady. "That word—first. It's important here," I go on, walking quickly past the blades station. Between words, my hand darts out and picks up six of the small knives, tucking them between each of my fingers, a knife for every space in between. I'm hoping that the Gamemakers' eyes won't be on my hands, that I'll have made this motion and kept them distracted with my words.
I've always been a good thief, but these are Gamemakers.
They see everything, do they not?
Still, a newly freed girl hopes.
"I know that most people from Six learn about medicine and the human body in school, but I had a more up close and personal education." It's almost eerie, hearing my lone voice echo around the cavernous room. So few times have I been made to speak like this, to monologue to an audience of two, to present myself for the chopping block. At home, my stage was a dark alley at night, whispering in a victim's ear about how they had crossed the wrong man, made the wrong move, snitched on the wrong villain. I was a bloodhound, not a lieutenant; I never gave the orders.
But still, my voice doesn't shake.
I won't let it.
As I speak, the first of the humanoid robots I'd requested comes to life and walks through the door. I'd honestly expected the trainers to set all of them on me at a single time, but only two walk through the door. I didn't spin around to meet them immediately, though I could hear the patter of their heavy footsteps coming up behind me. "Have you ever heard of 'designer DNA'?" I ask, though the question is mostly rhetorical.
I know who my audience is.
And I will show them what I can do, but I'd rather they value me for how I think.
When finally I'm sure that the humanoid is close enough, I spin away from my Gamemakers and grab the thing by its arm. Rather conveniently, its arms are already outstretched towards me, presumably to make an attempt at grabbing me, I'm sure. I'm confident enough in myself that I could succeed in this even if it hadn't been reaching for me, but either way the thing made my job easier and between one breath and the next I've stabbed my first knife into the thing's armpit. I know that was probably not the most impressive option to start with, but the opportunity was right there. Who can blame a girl for easing into things? I barely spare the thing a glance as it's mechanical mind registers blinding pain and presumably death.
Stabbing clean through someone's axillary artery will do that.
"The axillary artery," I say, voice sharp as my blade. "An easy target, especially for a blade like that."
The next humanoid thing isn't far behind the other though, and I almost take a right hook to the cheek before I bend backward, out of the way. It's a move that would send most people off-balance, and I struggle with it on occasion, so I'm glad today when I bend back into myself quickly and stay steady.
I make sure to keep my knife flat as I dig it up and between the robot's fake ribcage, plunging the blade right into where his right lung would be. I don't know if they have the exact infrastructure of a human, but it reacts as I would expect one to: by coughing up blood. "He'll drown in his own blood soon," I say, stepping back, uninterested now. As I go on, another of the things comes into focus, and I'm striding towards it while I speak. "Do you know how easy it is to tweak the DNA of bacteria?" I ask as my knife flicks out ahead of me. The sharp of the blade gouges itself into the robot's right eye and it teeters, but doesn't quite fall down. I'd expected as much—killing with a thrown knife through the eye takes a harder throw—which is why I'm still going at it full speed, once again holding my blade flat as I push it up between the third and fourth ribs, right into the liver. "Puncture wounds to the liver require immediate attention," I say, not yet quite breathless from the exertion, but I can feel the strain of using my strength beginning to be tested.
Then I go where I truly want.
I climb up.
As I steady myself to go on, I start my ascent, pushing myself up towards the rafters with every bit of strength that I can find in my body. It doesn't matter how many years a person spends doing things like this, pushing yourself up to a roof by shimmying up between two huge pillars is hard fucking work, and anyone who says otherwise is lying.
But still, I manage to make it up, and without catching myself on the blades, just in time for the final humanoid to come to full strength and walk into the large room. I'm dancing along the beams now, out of breath from the exertion, but I know that this is going to be the most important one. I've never been a fan of throwing knives, prefer to keep my blades as close to me as possible.
I think it's because I like control.
But I know a thrown knife is more impressive than one held close, and I've committed myself to this final kill from a distance. I settle into my stance, crouch down until I look more like a spider than a girl, all long limbs twisted together. I wait for the right moment, and when the humanoid turns—I throw.
My knife buries itself exactly where I needed it to, right there at the base of its skull. I stand, begging my mouth not to grin, but I'm no good at tamping down my impulses and when I start to smile, I don't do much to hold it back.
"My knives feel almost like they're a part of me," I begin. "But what if they were a part of me?" I ask, my smile as sharp as my horns had been at the opening ceremony. "I just showed you all the most vulnerable spots on a human's body, the little fissures between our strongest parts, the places where it's almost too easy to steal a person's life out from under them. The skull and the spine are resilient things, but a knife between them and it's all over." With no knives left in my hands, I'm even more dextrous than I was just a few moments ago. "What if you could build a human who didn't have those weaknesses?" I ask as I balance on my toes, almost dancing along the beam, high above everything. "For all we humans are apex predators and all that, we are remarkably fragile. What if, the way that you create mutts for your games, you could create a person just as fierce?"
I know myself, my weakness and my strengths, know that I'm not the smartest person in every room, that I'm not the girl who's going to create an army of humans turned weapons, but I'm clever and I'm creative enough to have the idea, and after everything that Kingpin has put me through, all the ways in which he has turned me into a monster: I want my Gamemakers to see that I can be so much more monstrous than the thing that he made me, want them to see that I know all the human body's weaknesses and how I think we could turn them into strengths. I curl into myself again until I'm dangling from the rafter, my hands holding me up. Looking down, it strikes me that it's further to the nearest post than I'd originally thought, but it's too late to turn back now, so I swing down onto one of the posts holding up the elevated net.
Reckless? Maybe.
But I don't know exactly how else they expected us to use the thing to train, and it would work well as a place to land if I fucked up the jump.
Thank Ripred I don't though.
"Look," I say, crouched atop that post, coming to a standstill. I'm balanced with both feet on the post, but it's so thin that really only the balls of my feet are holding me up. A strong gust of wind, and most people would topple to the floor and break something; worse yet, most people wouldn't be able to balance on top of the beam at all if they could even clobber their way up. But I've never been most people, have been dancing across rooftops and sinking knives into people's jugular for the last three years, and I'm not about to fall down now. "This is supposed to be about giving you all a show, I know, but I've never been that kind of a person." I backflip off of the post, land feet first on the soft mat, and quickly tuck into a squat before rolling forwards and coming to a stand just that much closer to the Gamemaker's viewing box.
Okay, maybe that was to show off.
But I'd like to see someone prove it.
"This was to show you what I can do, sure, but I want to make something very clear: I'd rather you think about what more I could be capable of." I cock my head to the side, voice playful. Too comfortable. "I mean, imagine what a girl could look like with a proper pair of canines."
And I grin.
tl;dr, terra kills a few humanoid robots very efficiently, talks a lot
about designer dna, and generally refuses to "put on a show"
or be anything other than exactly who she is. a terror!
response from verena [ WT ]:
You know pandering when you hear it.
That doesn't necessarily mean it isn't working.
You doubt Terra Markov, with her up close and personal education, has the background to support her own ideas. If she did, she would bring up the research along these lines from back before Gaul and her ilk pushed too hard and got human experimentation as a field as good as banned. That's alright; science starts not with knowledge but with questions, and sometimes people dream bigger before they learn what's come before. If you had met her in your usual capacity, you'd be thrilled to work through this with her, coaxing mechanics into genetics and concepts into a précis one question at a time—get her to explain how she would armor a body without ruining its dexterity, then get her thinking about evolutionary arms races, about how someone or something might crack that armor back open.
But you met her here, and in the end, she's more useful to Panem where she is.
Fortunately, she's made a good showing on that front, too. Bringing the robots out is always a nice touch, and you raised your eyebrows, impressed, when she first made for the rafters. All in all she's put on much the type of display you would usually expect from a Career, organized and adroit, with displays of both strength and aim; you don't doubt for a moment that she's telling the truth about having killed before, or that she can do it again.
You grin back as she closes her speech, and you're still smiling when you write down her looping 9.