ashes (opal&ridley)
Jul 4, 2020 23:10:07 GMT -5
Post by Stare on Jul 4, 2020 23:10:07 GMT -5
Ridley wasn't sure how long it was after Emmett's death that she sat curled up by her bed, staring at the darkness, before she realized that her arm was still bleeding. The blood had curved around the rim of her prosthetic hand, scarlet glittering at the edge of the gold, and was sticky-dark against her skin. There was a pool of it beneath her, nudging against her hip.
She rose like a ghost, a corpse, empty and aching and only half-aware that she was moving as she opened her door and padded out into the hallway. Blood splattered against the floor, the wall. Ridley blinked at it. Everything was quiet and still, and she realized it must be late in the evening. First night without him. She felt as if somebody had gutted her with a rusty spoon.
Pax. Ridley's throat was tight, her good hand gingerly pulling out one of the glass shards embedded above her wrist. I want my mom. Only her mother had ever seen her like this, vulnerable and twisted and despairing that she would never be good enough.
But Pax was gone. Ridley thought briefly of Kirito, who had been there for her the last Games when she'd faced a train ride home with a pair of bodies, but he was on a whole different floor and had his own tributes to worry about. Instead she staggered down the hall until she was standing in front of Opal's door. Her good hand hovered a moment, then rapped twice. When the door opened she took a defensive step back, tugging her arm against herself. Blood seeped through her shirt. "There was an accident," she tried to say crisply, though her voice was hoarse from crying. "It won't - it won't stop bleeding."
title from ashes, by claire guerreso