blood and unmarked graves (wnn vs ugg vs callum)
Jul 18, 2020 17:54:05 GMT -5
Post by D1f Jade Morin - Alyssaimagine on Jul 18, 2020 17:54:05 GMT -5
Jade stared up at the sky as the anthem played, and she wasn't sure what she wanted to see. A part of her dreaded seeing Pisces's face up in the sky, proof that he'd died earlier. The other part feared the other scenario even more. If he wasn't dead, then surely the Mutt girl would be right and they'd eventually find him revived tomorrow at the Cornucopia, but Jade knew better. If they came back alive, it was because they were Mutts. Why else would the Capitol do this? She knew the argument was the 80th games: if they could bring people back to life there, couldn't they here? It was even true, she figured. However, she doubted they would use the same trick twice in a row.
The real reason was that she didn't want to consider the alternative, because then she would have to face the people that she had failed, and come face to face with her own weaknesses. If Zenia was really the same girl as before, wouldn't she have to deal with the guilt, the torment of knowing she had failed, hating her for that failure, casting blame on her? She couldn't handle the guilt and the blame. Jade longed for love and acceptance, both things she'd never been given much of before. She was the strong Career, and she knew her alliance relied on that. At first, she had thought they would have two Careers to rely on, but she had seen Dominic was different from most Careers.
It wasn't a bad thing, and she hardly blamed the other kid, but that meant it all fell on her shoulders to protect them all. To be the leader that they all needed, and then that very first day everything was tested and everything came crashing down around her. Zenia had died while she could do nothing more than watch and then run, because she couldn't have made it there in time to save her and live. All that would have happened was two dead bodies, rather than one. However, that also meant she'd had to face the fact that she'd failed and she wasn't ready to do that. She also had to face the fact that she had cared about these other kids and their lives, and she hadn't been ready for that, either.
So, it was better to believe that they returned as Mutts, rather than the people they once were. If they were real again, would she be able to hold herself together? Right now, she could distance herself from the guilt, focus on it when she needed to. For the most part. She wouldn't be able to do the same if they had really come back. She'd either have a death wish, or would be so afraid to see them fighting that she would no longer be able to concentrate during fights. She'd throw herself in harms way just to save their lives, and die for it, and she wasn't ready for that, either. Jade wanted to live and be loved.
It was so much easier when she hadn't seen them as people. When she was training for this, she hadn't really considered the other tributes, but they would be merely objects in her way. They were obstacles she had to overcome to make it back home, they were all part of the ultimate test of her abilities. She realized the truth of the matter when she'd arrived and met some of the tributes. The first to make her realize had been the annoying Arabella with her millions of personal questions and rude eating habits that she'd detested, but she'd also come to realize that she had been real and some part of her even liked her and wanted to protect her.
Pisces wasn't in the sky that night, and she'd felt hallow. Subconsciously, she glanced over at Dominic and frowned. Her heart hurt for him, because while she hadn't focused on it, she had eyes. She'd seen the two boys grow close, how they'd loved each other, and now one was torn from his grasp and she'd been unable to prevent it. The guilt gnawed at her, eating away at her hallow stomach, threatening to overtake her. Was he going to come back as Zenia had? Was Zenia really a Mutt? Would Pisces really be a Mutt too? Maybe they weren't Mutts, could she deal with that? Her eyes sought out Zenia's, and she felt her eyes sting, but she wouldn't let those tears fall, because Morin kids didn't cry.
Instead, she turned her attention back to the sky, hugged her Dragon Plushie closer and fell asleep. The dreams would quickly turn to nightmares, and she'd wake on more than one occasion, sweat on her forehead. It was a restless sleep with nightmares and constant fidgeting and rolling over.
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Jade was the first awake, mostly because she'd barely slept that night. She gathered their things silently and wondered when they should disband their alliance. More and more people were dying, and Jade knew alliances could not last in the arena, because no one wanted to be the one to kill their allies. It was best to split apart, eventually, and every person fight for themselves. Eighteen people were left alive in the arena, and she knew the time was approaching, but it wasn't today. For now, they would still fight as one.
Once she was ready, she nudged them both gently to wake them. She would not mention Pisces. Would not mention her fears of him being a Mutt. She wouldn't glare at Zenia today. Partially, because she was beginning to doubt her own convictions. Partially because she didn't want to tell the boy that lost his lover that he would only come back a Mutt. That was something Jade would not do to the boy. She would never bring up Mutts again. She still mostly believed they were, the doubt not completely there, but she would not say it any longer, because it wasn't right. She would not hurt Dom further than he already was.
"It's time to move," she said quietly.
Yesterday they had begun the trip to the Cornucopia, so it didn't take long for them to reach it. It was unfortunate that they weren't the only people with the idea, however. A small alliance, at least she assumed it was an alliance was near her, and one boy stood to the side. The boy she'd met earlier. The boy whose ally her own alliance had murdered. She locked eyes with him, and assumed him more dangerous than the others, because she knew he'd want blood. He'd want vengeance, and that made him more dangerous than the two person alliance.
That's why she didn't hesitate when she swung out her sword and attacked him.
(Jade attacks Callum with a Sword.)
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(1162 -- Shallow Cut on Stomach -- 4.0 damage)
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