Andromache Audacia D2 [done]

I stand there, watching as people around me fighting. Sounds of fist pounding against flesh fill my ears. It's nothing new here. Some innocent person calling out for my help, but I don't move an inch. Helping them doesn't help me any, so why should I help them? There's nothing in it for me. I want to be a good person and do right by people, however, why should I when it doesn't benefit me? So I simply walk away. This isn't my fight, and I'm not going to intervene.

I wasn't always like this. I used to care so much for people. I would go out of my way to help them. Every hour of the day, if someone needed me, I would run to meet their needs. It didn't matter what it was. I'd go without sleep if someone felt they needed a protector. I'd stand watch by the door making sure they were okay. I'd give up my own meal for people. I had a huge heart, and wanted to make sure everyone was okay. But one night that all changed. I lost my job. At first it wasn't bad, but soon I ran out of money, and I slowly ran out of food, and I had enough to last another week or so, and I was weak and famished. I needed help, and when I called on my friend, she came to my rescue. We talked, we relaxed outside, and I ended up drifting off, and I woke to the sound of pots and pans rattling around. I jumped to my feet as fast as I could, and I watched my friend run as fast as she could away from there bags in her hands. I ran to my kitchen, and everything was gone. My heart broke, ans I called out for her, begged her to return, but she didn't. She left me in the middle of a house with no food. She left me for dead. Even when someone came to my rescue, it wasn't enough to fix the broken piece my friend took with her. A heart of gold quickly became a heart of stone.

I stopped caring and helping others unless there was something in it for me. I took care of myself because I realized nobody else would. Only I could take care of me, and anyone else who said they wanted to help me were liars. Nothing matters now. I come first. I am my own priority, and everyone else is much lower. I still want to be a good person, and I want to do right by people, however, I must make sure my needs are met. Nobody else matters anymore. As long as I am happy, then I'll let everyone else go away completely.

L△LIA <333