life is but fleeting flame {rene/alistair}
Oct 10, 2020 17:20:50 GMT -5
Post by rook on Oct 10, 2020 17:20:50 GMT -5
ÆSAHÆTTR
This place is so pristine and sculpted and false. I am a gargoyle sat upon a marble ledge, watching with a concrete stare as all the other chosen children dance around with swords and glaives and axes. After dragging me off the streets they stitched up my fresh wounds, bathed me in salts and dressed me in plain garbs like the rest of them, but now sitting here watching souls from outer districts hold spears like brooms I am beginning to think I do not belong in these clothes. Not a wolf among sheep so much as a corpse among the living.
They're all trying so hard, but fate will swallow all of them just the same. Yes, even the survivor.
A few of the instructors have asked if I would like to participate in training, and each time I simply inform them that I have no desire to learn anything here. Nothing they can teach me can alter my path, and I have no desire to win and become exalted. This may be my journey, but it's path is set, and I will be delivered to my destination at the correct moment, and I will embrace my death in the same way I have neglected my life.
The strong scent of heat rub spray is somewhat overpowering, and together mixed with the overcompensative yells of the career tributes I find the whole ambiance of this place somewhat obnoxious. As insane as it sounds, I'd rather be back sleeping in the cold mud with fresh knife wounds across my back than have to sit here and listen to a group of brainwashed meatheads believe themselves to be prodigal sons of some chosen deity.
Their blood will be as cold as mine come the changing of the seasons, unless destiny has them chosen for a worse fate.
Another instructor approaches me to ask if I'd be interested in taking some plant-based station, and I'm not sure quite how to tell him that I am quite happy sitting here waiting to die, but the fact that I haven't smiled in years coupled with forgetting how to be at all polite means I stare at him with a vacant expression and just tell him no instead.
His shadow seems to lurk for a few seconds. These people must speak a different language to mine else there be another reason for their persistence. A bit of the Godkiller rage finds me and I think I feel something for the first time in a while, but as I turn to repeat my refusal in a more firm tone I see it is not the instructor at all.
It is another boy, like myself, but more alive.