serpents among roses & thorns .| mackinta

new

« Prev
1
Next »

я𝑜𝓈𝑒
Mentor

2,890 POSTS

Pronouns: she/her/they/them
last seen Nov 23, 2023 2:34:11 GMT -5

anyway don't be a stranger

serpents among roses & thorns .| mackinta Jan 3, 2021 0:52:55 GMT -5

Post by я𝑜𝓈𝑒 on Jan 3, 2021 0:52:55 GMT -5

now all the birds have fled
the hurt just leaves me scared
losing everything I've ever known
it's all become too much

Jacinta Salazar never intended to fall in love with Mackenzie Pryce.

It didn't happen in a whirlwind. She has always been much too careful for that. As a child, her parents taught her to be protective of her heart, and she was. She became so lonely that she was certain it had frozen solid with ice.

Her love for him was quiet. It crept up on her like a shadow, rooting itself deep within her empty heart. By the time she was aware of it, she couldn't untangle and uproot it.

She wanted to. Jacinta had kept him at a distance, pushed him away when he tried to get close, so fearful of her feelings that she couldn't bear to face them sometimes.

Jacinta has still never told Mackenzie that she loves him. She wonders if he knows, if he can see it in the way her eyes light up when she looks at him, if he can feel it in her embrace.

It's because she loves him that she has to come clean. About everything. Jacinta has never told him about her father, her family, the real reason why they are so rich. She was afraid — and still is — that it's too much baggage, that he won't look at her the same after he knows the truth.

But their child is due next week, and she has put this off for too long. As they're sitting on the sofa by the warm golden glow of the fireplace, Jacinta decides to rip the band-aid off. It is a cold fall evening; outside, the leaves are just beginning to turn, the days turning more and more overcast as time passes by.

"Mackenzie," she says quietly, lifting her head from its resting spot on the crook of his shoulder. "There's something we need to talk about. I should have told you a long time ago, I just — didn't know how."

She maintains her closeness to him, their arms and shoulders touching, but she avoids his gaze.

I can't save us, my Atlantis
we built this town on shaky ground
I can't save us, my Atlantis
we built it up to pull it down

table: dars

"even stars burn out."

я𝑜𝓈𝑒
Mentor

2,890 POSTS

Pronouns: she/her/they/them
last seen Nov 23, 2023 2:34:11 GMT -5

anyway don't be a stranger

serpents among roses & thorns .| mackinta Apr 28, 2021 2:10:15 GMT -5

Post by я𝑜𝓈𝑒 on Apr 28, 2021 2:10:15 GMT -5

now all the birds have fled
the hurt just leaves me scared
losing everything I've ever known
it's all become too much

Warmth ripples through her body when Mackenzie's lips touch her shoulder. It would have been reassuring if the tension in her chest wasn't already suffocating her.

She lifts her head up to look at him, knowing that the apprehension in her eyes is clear as day. Jacinta lets him read her, lets herself be vulnerable. It's always been a scary leap for her to take, especially when she might actually have something to lose.

"It's my family. They're not... who you think they are." Her mouth has gone bone dry, and she tastes ash on her tongue. She's staring at her stomach when she speaks, thinking of their child, of its future if she and Mackenzie don't stay together. He might not want anything to do with her after this. She couldn't even blame him.

There isn't much that Jacinta wouldn't be able to forgive Mackenzie for. It goes against her nature; she had always been one to settle the score, to hold a grudge close to her heart. But she has forgiven him before, and she knows that she could again if something were to happen.

She just hopes that the sentiment goes both ways.

"I never said anything because I'm not proud of it," she says. Jacinta has never liked admitting shame, so she leaves the word out completely. But that is exactly how she feels about her family, her father most of all. There was once a time in her life when she was proud to call herself a Salazar. In boarding school, she would flaunt her name and the status that came with it. She had been more naive then, and was kept in the dark about the Salazar's truth.

Once she knew, her defiance set in. Jacinta never wanted anything to do with her father's mafia, but no one ever gave her a choice.

"I wasn't trying to deceive you, I just — I didn't want to be judged. But you deserve to know the truth." Mackenzie is the father of her child; even if things end, they will still have to share a life together. If she keeps this from him any longer, she could no longer justify it to herself.

I can't save us, my Atlantis
we built this town on shaky ground
I can't save us, my Atlantis
we built it up to pull it down

table: dars