So Far Away [Dee]

I can't take my eyes off the koala Chloe left behind. It's hard not to think about everything. The idea of losing my family is weighing heavily on my mind. Vera is of age. The triplets are of age. I can't lose them. I said at one point in life that I'd never have a family because I don't want them to go through what I went through. I don't want them to have to kill their friends they make in the games to make it home alive. I've seen what happens. I know what happens. And I don't want to stress Navya out. I don't want her to worry. I don't want to bring her down because I feel I've done that enough as it is. I just want her to know I love her and I care for her. I trust her. I need her. I need more than that though. I need someone who understands.

I take a moment and grab the koala and I slip on my shoes and leave my house. I can't go visit her grave, but I remember the holographic museum. I can bring her to life again for a moment and I can talk to her and see her. It's not too far from home. Never been there before, but I know it's been used many times. People wanting to know a lot about the games and seeing different scenarios. And with it being early morning before the sun rises, I hope nobody else is there. The walk is easy. The breeze brings me to life. It makes me feel like nothing else matters. When I reach the museum I carefully make my way inside. I'm not sure what I want to talk about, and I know it's not the same as seeing her in person.

I find the game we were in, and it takes a moment. I don't know what to say or what to do. I don't know where to go from here. I don't even know if she's the same person she was before. Can holograms have personalities? Will it match her voice? Is it the Capitol playing a trick? I don't know, but I'm going to find out. I reach forward and turn on the switch, and the game comes to life. And then I walk around, and I find the battle of me and her. It breaks my heart, but I flick the next switch, and then she snaps to life, and it takes every ounce of strength to remain strong. Yet the tears still stream down my face. "Chloe..." My voice ceases as I lean forward unsure of what to even say. I hope she can help.