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pogue Graphics 1,890 POSTS Pronouns: He/Him last seen Oct 19, 2024 11:07:44 GMT -5 Is she trying to interrupt our henna session?	cirrus . two . cb [fin] Jan 24, 2021 18:46:35 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by pogue on Jan 24, 2021 18:46:35 GMT -5 Cirrus Kastro . Two . Career
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Is she trying to interrupt our henna session?

cirrus . two . cb [fin] Jan 24, 2021 21:02:51 GMT -5

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Post by pogue on Jan 24, 2021 21:02:51 GMT -5

C I R R U S

I’ve got a sickness in my bones, pumped through every red blue purple vein that darts and scatters across my body, charting a course of hollow and heart.

I’ve got a sickness in my bones, buried under overgrown fingernails that scrape and cut against everything I touch, sharpened into claws, feral and unkempt and ferocious and everything a Kastro is meant to be.

I’ve got a sickness in my bones and it’s taken everything from me, hunger turned craving turned execution and I’m left empty again, pressing my fingers into a fist until I can’t feel myself anymore. It took my Brother when I was seven, innocence laced in every word as I asked him to play with me. But capture the flag can do nothing but hold a melted candle to the thought of snuffing out another life, he told me that he didn’t have any interest in what it meant to be a kid anymore. When I looked into his eyes and felt only ice, I believed him.

I’ve got a sickness in my bones and it’s not taking anything anymore. There’s nothing left to give, nothing left to shatter.

I’ve got a sickness in my bones and with each passing year it spreads and spreads, with every clenched fist and thrown knife spewing a bloody discourse against the mangled training dummy. When I look in the mirror I can see it in my eyes, murky and dark and unforgiving. It scared me when I was younger, the way the boy I saw in the mirror didn’t look like myself, didn’t look like anything but blood and lust and everything in between.

I’ve got a sickness, in my bones in my heart in the way I walk and the way I talk. When I look in the mirror now I smile, I welcome it.

pogue Graphics 1,890 POSTS Pronouns: He/Him last seen Oct 19, 2024 11:07:44 GMT -5 Is she trying to interrupt our henna session?	cirrus . two . cb [fin] Jan 24, 2021 21:04:04 GMT -5 Quote Select Post Deselect Post Link to Post Member Give Gift Back to Top Post by pogue on Jan 24, 2021 21:04:04 GMT -5 Done! Face claim is Trisha Paytas, pleaseeee don’t steal ripred_bot

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