this one will hurt [flynn vs castor] day 8
Apr 10, 2021 14:11:31 GMT -5
Post by d6a georgie cham 🍓🐢 frankel on Apr 10, 2021 14:11:31 GMT -5
It is a long wait, looking up at a sky that is not there. Just a low smog to remind me how toxic all of this is. I have seen prettier arenas than this one on the television before, of course I had to volunteer for the games where there is a risk of coming home with mutated limbs and a permanent stench in my nostrils that I am never going to be able to shake away. Though hopefully the radiation poison might just help me grow back another ear. Might be a donkey ear though or something ghastly. My thighs are wrapped up with bandages, thankfully the only wound that needs stitching is in a spot where I can reach.
The night is barely young, but the loneliness is setting in.
What now exactly but to be left with my thoughts and the glowing lime creature that resides on my shoulder?
It is so quiet, for the first time I can count the cameras. There is one so clearly perched on a railing. It will have captured the whole day. Saved in the archives forever for all my loved ones to watch. To see how big of a murderer I really am. I wish I could see what they are all doing right now. Mom, dad, my sister, Tarquin, Dale, Jodie…even George. Are they watching all of this behind their hands? Have they switched off? Are they cheering me on even? No, my mom will not. She will have been shaking her head for a week straight. What an idiot. It is not that I can only imagine that, I am pretty sure it is true.
Music begins to play. It is coming. The obituary. The truth of my loneliness. The fallen four lead by…Nanette Carter. ”Nan why? I am so sorry!” I shout up to the sky as I am still sat down on the bridge. Tears are permanent feature now. I never got to say goodbye. But am I only glad that I was not there to see it. I was never as close to Revan and Langley and both their deaths haunt me. Just seeing Nan’s face in the sky is tormenting enough. I just hope it was painless. I just hope it was quick. ”I will keep my promise Nan, do not worry! I will find your mom!” Why oh why? Who even has the power to kill someone as strong as Nan? I hope they are still not roaming.
I watch for the rest of the faces to show. Lorraine comes next, she looks prettier in the picture. She looks more human. Then both tributes from Twelve. Well, I am glad fiery fists is gone. Lenox is still left; I think maybe an Eleven. I have lacked on watching the anthems some nights, so I am not certain.
Darkness is quick to fall. My head quakes with agony and my eyes are fighting to stay alert. Everything feels so dry, my stomach swirls around. I just really need a long hot bath and a nice bowl of soup. Then to sleep in a nice fluffy warm bed. But I am stuck on this hard cold concrete that is ageing my back by fifty years. The comforts will come. I hate the boy I became today but he needs to stick around a day or two longer. I am so close.
Coughing lungs wake me. My chest is so tickly, my lungs feel like they filled with debris. It takes a moment to tackle the coughing fit and it leaves behind a horrible feeling in my throat. It feels like I have swallowed a few blades. What have I been breathing in all night? My lungs feel torn. The smog is even thicker today, I can barely see past arm’s length. Well, it is going to be fun firing a gun today.
I prepare the day like all the other seven. This is the third time waking up alone, but it feels different now. Now I know that nobody will have my back. It is all on me. It is all on me who complained my life was so mediocre. I wish it really were. I will trade all of this to live a simple life with no drama. Just to be like any other busy body in District Six with a handful of friends. I would trade this to be a boy whose name will not be written in any history books or in a museum. I would trade all this to just be the son of two gastroenterologist instead of the thirteen-year-old who decided to risk his whole life.
I just trek on, not exactly sure where the smoggy path is taking me. My fingers are wrapped tight around a newer loaded revolver. I know how to aim now, I just wish I could make it a quickfire, not something so long and prolonged like it was for Lorraine. She would have been in so much pain. Death is never kind but there are definitely kinder ways to go.
Everything starts to become a little familiar, I am back where it all started. The cornucopia tower does not look as tall as it did when Nan and Revan climbed it a week ago, but I do not have time to reminisce. There is company.
A boy not much older than me. I have not seen him the arena. I can remember all the official people on the sixth floor in the Capitol talking about him though, this one is blind. Wow the Capitol will be reeling, a blind boy and a kid that has not fully gone through puberty yet has outlived its careers. Fuck and now we are up against each other. ”So, who did you kill to get this far?” I ask in a croakier squeakier voice than normal, all the coughing has really fucked up my throat. It is worth the shot asking, I doubt he will have been the one to kill Nan. No, she is better than that.
”I can only hear out of one ear now so we are kind of at the same advantage.”I am sorry to not wait for the answer though. I have learnt that too much talking just prolongs and distracts the inevitable. We both probably want the same thing, and I am just not going to be this other kid’s door out of here. There is going to be another mourning family... ”I am sorry.”
Flynn attacks Castor | revolver [throwing knives]
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[9170 -- Deep Gash on Chest -- 9.5 damage + 1 target practice]
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[9170 -- Deep Gash on Chest -- 9.5 damage + 1 target practice]