some kind of message lies under your skin [riptide day 2]
Jun 30, 2021 12:45:27 GMT -5
Post by kap on Jun 30, 2021 12:45:27 GMT -5
tw: mention of animal death
I didn't kill anything, and I was actually somewhat relieved. Sure, I've lived on a farm my whole life, and I've had to kill animals for the sake of meat or putting them out of their misery when they're too sick or injured to go on, but it was never like that. I never just ripped them apart, striking them over and over again. Rather, they were killed much more humanely. That wasn't an option here in the arena.
Evan had killed the first mutt, and Six? Well, it looked like when he swung and missed the second mutt that it collapsed from a combination of fear and injuries. It was definitely in distress before it died, and some of that was my fault. I felt pretty guilty, but I wasn't freaking out quite as much as Six was. I kept my anxiety hidden inside, but Six didn't do that quite as well.
"Come on, let's get away from their bodies," I said to Six and Evan, referring to the mutts that had just been killed at our hands, or perhaps, to be more specific, at the ends of our weapons. I had more blood on me than I would have liked, and seeing my allies beat up as much as they were made me feel a little nauseated, admittedly.
When we got to a part of the challenge course that was a little ways away from the dead mutts, I put my hand on Six's shoulder. I could see how uncomfortable and likely guilty he felt at that moment.
"Hey, Six?" I said to him. "It's okay. I know you're feeling really bad right now, but we did what we had to. If those mutts weren't the ones who got killed, it would have been the three of us."
I hoped he understood that I was doing my very best to try to comfort him. I didn't want to make him feel worse, but I'd never been the best with words.
"How about you sit down?" I suggested. "I think I'm going to pick up a few things. I saw some stuff around here that might be useful to us later, and I want to keep us all as safe as I can. I'm sorry I couldn't have been more useful back there. I should have protected you two a lot better than I did."
Although, I wasn't sure Evan really needed protecting. He did pretty well on his own. Regardless, I felt guilty for letting the two of them get so hurt. Even though I was worse off than Evan right now, I still even felt bad for him. There were definitely some cuts on him, and any damage was worse than what I wanted to see. I wanted to see us all doing just fine, but I knew that that wasn't exactly possible in the arena.
Evan had certainly proved himself back there, with how well he did against those mutts. Six and I on the other hand, didn't do so well, and I felt rather useless.
I picked up a few things around the area we were in, and then returned to where my allies were.
"You two hangin' in there alright? I'm sorry I was so useless during that fight. You probably think I'm pathetic…" My words trailed off. I wasn't sure what else to say.
table by Kaplan
title lyrics: "Imagine Life" by Thirteen Senses
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