something in the way / fionn & heidi
Sept 20, 2024 11:10:48 GMT -5
Post by andromache s. ⚔️ [d1b] sucy on Sept 20, 2024 11:10:48 GMT -5
Damn. Tibbs is passed out on the sofa, crossfaded in another dimension, dead to the world of the party and to me, shaking the hell out of him. Looks like he had some of that Morphling that was being passed out — I stay away from that junk. But he’s breathing, so I turn him on his side like my dad taught me to do and leave him like that. I’m not carrying him home. Not again. He can stay on the stained sofa and suck in smoke all night; I’m getting out of here.
The party does its best to keep me in the crowd, but being tall and gangly has its advantages. I slide through the few gaps where people were leaving room for Ripred, yank my feet off the sticky floor, and stumble out the door. My cheeks burn red from the heat inside, from the alcohol, from smoke in my lungs, and the mild autumn night air is just what’s needed to drag me out of delirium. In the burnt out warehouse I’d just escaped, the sweat had slid, slipped off my body, but outside, it chills, clings to me and makes me clammy, makes me solid again. These days the out of body feeling I’ve spent the last few years chasing scares me. I get there, then climb right back into myself.
Check the time. Barely 23:00. Get fucked up faster, spiral down quicker. Burn hotter. It all escalates more and more the longer I go on.
I could go home. Sneak past my mom, my sister, my homework and my messy room into bed. But I’m not feeling it. My heart’s still racing, fingers still twitching — Heidi. I’ve always had a key for dad’s place, but I’ve never used it as much as I have since Heidi started staying there. Usually I’m in, grab what I want (whiskey, cigarettes, unsoiled clothes) and I’m out. But I like Heidi. I like that she’s there, that someone’s around who isn’t obligated to try. She’s crazy, like dad is, but she’s cute and hasn’t let it ruin her life yet, so whatever.
The walk is short and when I get there the place is quiet. Dad’s not home. He’ll be sorry he missed me. Twist the key in the lock, stumble over the threshold straight into the living room. This sofa wake up is a success.
“Heidi,” I hiss, crouching down by her sleeping face. “Heidi, they got dad. They took him in.” But I’m smiling, so that when she opens her eyes, she’ll know I’m winding her up.