I thought we'd get to see forever//Judicial {Jack}
May 22, 2012 22:57:37 GMT -5
Post by laphae8ash on May 22, 2012 22:57:37 GMT -5
How do I say goodbye to what we had?
The good times that made us laugh
Outweigh the bad.
I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
I don't know where this road
Is going to lead
All I know is where we've been
And what we've been through.
The good times that made us laugh
Outweigh the bad.
I thought we'd get to see forever
But forever's gone away
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
I don't know where this road
Is going to lead
All I know is where we've been
And what we've been through.
What an awful dream. It was so scary and realistic that I needed to tell Jack about it. Feel his arms around me to comfort me and let me know that I didn't have to worry, that the reaping would be fine. That I wouldn't be called and it would all be over soon.
Its almost as if I'm still floating when my eyes open. The dark room filled with motion and I can't remember if I'm at the hospital or why I am where I am. "Jack! JACK!" I call out searching the room for him, but instead of being in my room I'm surrounded by peace keepers and a Capitol representative. Resting on a almost new but still fairly rough couch, my heart shatters as I realize that the dream wasn't a dream after all, that my name really was called and I really am going to the Arena.
The sobs start again and I'm drawing looks from everyone in the room. They just don't understand, they don't care that I'm not the only one dying, my children are going to die too. They don't understand that I spent my last night with Jack angry and sleeping huddled by some random person's porch. That I had nothing to bring with me, no token to show that I mean anything to anyone, that I'd have no one who'd cared if I died.
I know Jack was there and saw the horror play out, but after yesterday does he even care? Does he even still want to marry me? Wrapping my arms around myself I squeeze as if to push all the air from my lungs. My parents won't be here, they would rather I be dead already, and from what I understand the other tribute is the brother of Mace Emberstatt. VICTOR. So all I have are my children to keep my company on my trip to the Capitol.
Someone asks me if I'm ready to stand and I shake my head just needed a few moments more. I hope they do it fast. Not draw it out like some of the more crazy Careers. I hope that they don't go for my stomach, like a sick twisted bastard. I hope that I die before making it in. That maybe some how when I go to sleep on the train that I never wake up. That they loose their District 10 Female Tribute. Yet I know it won't happen. I'm not that damn lucky.
Finally I raise my head and look up at a peace keeper who ushers me into a room. Its small but private and there's a desk and a few chair, lots of books that give the room a musty worn smell. Fidgeting I take a seat, my eyes darting around the room trying to figure out what I'm going to do, who would even want to come see me, when I hear foot steps and the door clicks open.
"Four minutes. That's it." a deep gruff voice says to the shadows outside the door. My heart starts racing again as I can't figure out who would even care to visit. When I see the hand at the door my heart skips a beat. Its Jack's mother and father, who have become my family as well. If only they knew just how much they have meant to me. Flying into his mothers arms I start sobbing.
"I'm so sorry! I'm so sorry! Don't hate me! I didn't want this! I didn't do anything! Just don't let Jack hate me. Don't let him blame himself. Don't let him hate me!" I blubber. My sobs are raking through me and I can't breathe. I know I'm weak and breaking down, but right now I don't care.
If we get to see tomorrow
I hope it's worth all the wait
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
I hope it's worth all the wait
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
And I'll take with me the memories
To be my sunshine after the rain
It's so hard to say goodbye to yesterday.
(OOC-I only can do one post for Jack's parents and One post to Jack so please make it long and detailed)