revealing secrets // sawdusts {blitz}
Jul 1, 2015 14:26:52 GMT -5
Post by thompson harvard - d2b - arc on Jul 1, 2015 14:26:52 GMT -5
Is it normal to be this nervous when you're about to share a huge part of your life with people in your family? Especially this thing, because it could change their opinions on me quickly and cause them to dislike me. I wasn't worried about Phoebe, I think, but Terrance might have an odd reaction however. Though I have no clue if they'll like me afterwards. This is the perfect time to tell them, correct? I've practiced the words; saying them in the mirror but whenever I'm about to say it I freeze. It's like I become frozen with terror because I don't even want to admit it myself but yet I have to. Today is the day I am revealing the biggest part of my life to my family; but I don't know if I can do it.
What if I choke? What if I suddenly chicken out and run to my bedroom crying and they're just confused on why I am acting so odd? I don't want them to figure out by themself, because I want to be able to say it. Looking into the mirror now as I try to force myself to get used to the saying I just can't do it. I can't. It hurts me to try and say it. But I have to. "I-" I cannot find words to even talk to a mirror. It's silly obviously but I'm damn scared. I don't think it'll be easy trying to get the words out. Maybe I should try and get Renly over. Moral support, right? I guess you can say we're dating; I mean, we're close enough in a relationship in that way and regularly so you could say that.
I walk downstairs ready to tell at least someone in my family about it. However; I have no clue how many or who it would be. Entering the living room it was the two people I had mentioned earlier. Phoebe and Terrance, both in the living room ironically due to my fears of telling them. Everyone has to conquer their fears so that means I have to also?
In a somewhat panicked; yet worried voice I request for them. "Can I talk to you guys?"
wc: 370
tags: Arrows you're up i guess
other: okay i have no idea how i fuckin wrote this
but hey
i'm not the one to judge