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revealing secrets // sawdusts {blitz} Jul 1, 2015 14:26:52 GMT -5

Post by arctic on Jul 1, 2015 14:26:52 GMT -5

Is it normal to be this nervous when you're about to share a huge part of your life with people in your family? Especially this thing, because it could change their opinions on me quickly and cause them to dislike me. I wasn't worried about Phoebe, I think, but Terrance might have an odd reaction however. Though I have no clue if they'll like me afterwards. This is the perfect time to tell them, correct? I've practiced the words; saying them in the mirror but whenever I'm about to say it I freeze. It's like I become frozen with terror because I don't even want to admit it myself but yet I have to. Today is the day I am revealing the biggest part of my life to my family; but I don't know if I can do it.

What if I choke? What if I suddenly chicken out and run to my bedroom crying and they're just confused on why I am acting so odd? I don't want them to figure out by themself, because I want to be able to say it. Looking into the mirror now as I try to force myself to get used to the saying I just can't do it. I can't. It hurts me to try and say it. But I have to. "I-" I cannot find words to even talk to a mirror. It's silly obviously but I'm damn scared. I don't think it'll be easy trying to get the words out. Maybe I should try and get Renly over. Moral support, right? I guess you can say we're dating; I mean, we're close enough in a relationship in that way and regularly so you could say that.

I walk downstairs ready to tell at least someone in my family about it. However; I have no clue how many or who it would be. Entering the living room it was the two people I had mentioned earlier. Phoebe and Terrance, both in the living room ironically due to my fears of telling them. Everyone has to conquer their fears so that means I have to also?

In a somewhat panicked; yet worried voice I request for them. "Can I talk to you guys?"

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tags: Arrows you're up i guess
other: okay i have no idea how i fuckin wrote this

but hey

i'm not the one to judge

Last Edit: Jul 8, 2015 17:32:46 GMT -5 by arctic

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revealing secrets // sawdusts {blitz} Jul 6, 2015 21:07:06 GMT -5

Post by Arrows on Jul 6, 2015 21:07:06 GMT -5

<>Phoebe Sawdust<>

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Far off in some desolate location tributes from all over Panem's districts were raising weapons towards each other and bringing forth a down pour of blood all at the Capitol's demands.However Phoebe never watched the games. Even if there were a million seperate district seven lives on the line she would not watch the games more than she absolutely had to. The violence that grew within them sent shivers through her whole body at the thought of one of her family members falling victim to their fate. Thankfully the Sawdust's luck appeared to be holding strong as yet again another Reaping had come and gone without claiming one of its many lives. Phoebe wanted to believe that it would never but she couldn't help but admit to herself that one day a Sawdust would be drawn. The odds were always against family's like hers. The Capitol had to make sure no one received any happiness unless they gave it to them. Which probably explains why she still found no one to hold in the cold nights and to kiss gently. Perhaps she never would considering the one contender was now fighting in the games. Even then he never really seemed to be her type, with him destroying the beauty of the tree grove she always visits.

However a surprise greets Phoebe as she pushes her way into her home. Wynn and Terrance both stood there as if waiting for her. Phoebe worried she might have done something wrong considering the nervous and shocked tone that wavered like a red flag in Wynn's voice. However she simply smiled at him softly, "Of course." She said as she followed him into another room with Terrance right on her heels. Whatever the news was it had to be big considering the amount of angst she could see exploding from her fellow triplet's face. Yet once again she just smiled and took one of his hands. "You know you can tell us anything Wynn, so just tell us."

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ooc: sorry super short but wanted to get this rolling so there xD

Last Edit: Jul 6, 2015 21:11:16 GMT -5 by Arrows

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revealing secrets // sawdusts {blitz} Jul 12, 2015 23:11:16 GMT -5

Post by arctic on Jul 12, 2015 23:11:16 GMT -5

Wynn Sawdust

secrets that need to be told

However Terrance had left the room. Is that a good thing? I have no clue and cannot tell. But Phoebe had stayed, which meant I wouldn't have any way of getting out of this mess now. Breathing in in out my breaths had gotten faster, more frantic as I was getting scared as hell and I wanted to back out. But there are secrets that must be told, without doing that, I am just wasting her time. However I can't do it; telling her would be a major burdon on myself because I just don't know how to without having a minor heart attack on the inside.

"Of course." I hear her say as she lead me into another room. After knowing each other for so long, she would be able to tell I was nervous about something. There was no way people couldn't see it in my body stance or hear how nervous I am. Terrance had come in to follow Phoebe, probably just wanting to know what the hell I was going to tell her but I didn't mind. The more people that know, the more I can calm down. "You know you can tell us anything Wynn, so just tell us." I hear Phoebe say. Well, shit. I'm not getting out of this anytime soon. I think to myself with a large sigh escaping my lips.

I can't believe I'm doing this. Will I? I will. My mouth opens to speak; but the words that come out are not the ones I had wanted to form. "Will you guy's still love me no matter the circumstances?"God damn it, Wynn.